Caught off gaurd...

I was hoping that my life was going to get better but it got worst. I refuse to let this set back bring me down. I been down for to damn long. Dealing with self-steam issues. Listening to someone tell me I'm not good enough and I don't do nothing right. I cried many nights. Holding all the things in I wanted to say in fear of being alone in a new place. Now I realized it wasn't worth it. I should have closed this door along time ago. The good thing is she closed it for me and she can no longer hurt me. When she walked out she lost all her power she had over me. Yes I'm still alone and I cry myself to sleep at night because I did love her. I hold on to the truth in my heart knowing I didn't do nothing intentionally to hurt her. It's one thing to be a stand up woman and it's another to intentionally try to hurt someone. When you intend to cause someone else pain it's going to come back to you. So I always try to treat others they way I want to be treated even if they treat me badly. SOOOO...I wish her the best and hope she has a safe trip home. I want her to know I'm thankful for the 4 dollars she left me and the letter. I want to say thank you for the tears and the sleepless nights. Thank you for the laughter and the happy moments. I'm happy this book has closed and we never have to cross paths again. I once asked you to make me hate you and you accomplished that hands down!!!!